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The Imaginal Disc

“My spirit drives me now to sing about
the forms of things changed into new bodies.
Since you gods caused these transformations, too,
inspire what I am going to write about,
and bring forth an uninterrupted song,
from the primal origins of the world
down to this present age.”

Ovid, Metamorphoses, Book I

“Als Gregor Samsa eines Morgens aus unruhigen Träumen erwachte, fand er sich in seinem Bett zu einem ungeheuren Ungeziefer verwandelt. [One morning, as Gregor Samsa was waking up from anxious dreams, he discovered that in bed he had been changed into a monstrous verminous bug.]” (Kafka, Franz. 1915. The Metamorphosis). Gregor had already opened himself to the transformation without knowing it. He had achieved a kind of alchemical miracle; it is not difficult to imagine a red shimmering light beneath the night in which the transformation occurred. Rubedo! Rubedo! The sun shone like an atomic bomb. It brings the mind to blood. To use Bataille’s own words in Blue of Noon: “Was there anything more sunlike than red blood running over cobblestones, as though light could shatter and kill?” (1935).

In another plateau I have already introduced the concept of imago. But where I previously took my point of departure in our shared death, there is so much more to say. There are in fact two aspects of the concept that I want to highlight: (i) becoming and the concept’s place in a revolutionary aesthetics, and (ii) the concept’s relation to an ephemeral imaginality. In line with my entire project (and ADHD brain), I will not follow a linear argument below. I am tired of trees and indifferent logic. I want to sing you a song from the primal beginning of existence itself and thereby also open the door to the imaginal. A door like in Strindberg’s A Dream Play (1902); and I pity all the right-thinking for their disappointment at the nothing that lies behind it.

Thus, to return to our beloved Gregor Samsa, his transformation carries a kind of inverted philosopher’s stone. There is a folded distinction here between what Deleuze and Guattari call “a minor” and “a major” literature. We may imagine Dante’s snow-white rose in Paradiso as representing the major form of the final alchemical process, while Gregor Samsa’s transformation mirrors the corresponding minor form. In Deleuze and Guattari’s Kafka: Toward a Minor Literature (1986), the concepts diverge: a major kind of literature territorializes language; it totalizes it and binds it into an overarching whole. A minor kind of literature subverts language; it deterritorializes it and thus acts as a resistance against language itself. Thus, what a traditional alchemical transformation does is a kind of individuation of the self; the philosopher’s stone totalizes the self and incorporates its opposites into a unity. The self becomes territorialized by itself. Gilgamesh’s journey toward self-realization, to attain immortality and thus access the philosopher’s stone, is an expression of this form of process. To encounter death and incorporate this one’s own death is undoubtedly a kind of territorialization of our own brokenness, but it is a totalization that is impossible; brokenness itself makes it impossible for the self to become whole. Kafka’s metamorphosis exemplifies this distinction better; for it is through a radical deterritorialization that the insight of death occurs. One’s own death makes us flee from the self; the self’s own incompleteness drives it beyond itself, into new openings and lines of flight. This is the dark side, or the minor philosopher’s stone. Gregor Samsa’s transformation is in many ways violent in this respect. His total shame and confusion, and his family’s inability to deal with his new form, arise from his imago; he had become an alien even to himself.

It should also be noted that the German word “Ungeziefer” (vermin) etymologically means “animals unsuitable for sacrifice” (https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Ungeziefer). In Bataille’s reading of Hegel in Hegel, Death and Sacrifice (1990), he shows how Hegel’s sacrifice is humanity’s expulsion of the inner animal; the inner beast. In a way, Enkidu’s death became a sacrifice for Gilgamesh insofar as Enkidu, the wild man, represented Gilgamesh’s own death. This being-toward-death that emerges within the human is revealed for Hegel precisely through the animal in sacrifice; it reveals the human as a life lived from death. When the animal is killed, the self identifies with this animal and sees itself disappear with it. But this “Ungeziefer,” this pest that arises in imaginal metamorphosis, does not conceal death behind a veil as in monumentalism; instead, it allows itself to be identified beyond the dialectic between human and animal, master and slave, as an alien. It sees the joy in death (what a liberation that even others’ memories of me will disappear in the sands of time!) while at the same time carrying its melancholic sorrow at becoming a trace in the desert of existence, which will nevertheless be blown away into oblivion. For it is a pest in the sense that it is not meant to be sacrificed; it carries its own negativity and incompleteness without the need to resolve this immanent instability.

In Ovid’s Metamorphoses, Book VI, the young woman Arachne challenges the goddess Minerva to a weaving contest. Minerva weaves an artwork, an image, of divine order and its splendor, along with warnings of what hubris leads to. Arachne, in turn, creates an image of the gods’ violence, the consequences of divine power, and she sanctifies difference in itself; the new over the old. Her images of the abuse of divine power I read as imago. Where Minerva seeks to maintain the status quo and totalize the singular power of divinity over existence, Arachne seeks liberation from it; she seeks something new and thus defies the very conditions of existence itself (the gods read as representatives of these conditions). Arachne’s hubris is not remarkable in the sense that she sees herself as unbeatable and uniquely superior, as an expression of narcissism. On the contrary: her hubris is an expression of her will to freedom and her will to flee from herself as much as from the tyranny of the gods. This very hubris becomes her downfall because of that will. It is through her own Magnum Opus that she opens the door to imago; a transformation that, like Gregor Samsa, turns her into a pest—in her case, a spider. Ovid’s words should also be illuminated here: “The girl, now desperate, could not endure the blows [of Minerva], and, in a burst of courage, fixed a noose around her neck.” (1892). Her art drove the gods to violate her to the point that she committed suicide “in courage.” Her courage to follow her own line of flight thus became her own ecdysis into imago. In a way, she collided with her own negativity in a becoming-spider.

Just as Deleuze and Guattari observe in Kafka: Toward a Minor Literature (1986), the minor transformation does not arise from the minority’s self-transformation; it arises from the majority’s. Just as a minority writer produces a minor language within the major language, the minor philosopher’s stone arises through the greater rubedo process. And just as the impossibility of not writing creates the conditions for a minor literature, the same conditions for imago arise through an impossibility of becoming-majority. It is with Minerva’s own art form, weaving, that Arachne defeats her. But she must weave; the impossibility of refraining is the very condition of her so-called “hubris.” Thus, it is from the starting point of the old that openings exist—the doors that release what rots and welcome the arrival of the new. The very impossibility of finding the new in the old is our door to the new.

“Writing like a dog digging a hole, a rat digging its burrow. And to do that, finding his own point of underdevelopment, his own patois, his own third world, his own desert.” (ibid).

Ballroom culture was an imago winged like a butterfly. Vogue dance reveals an important aspect while exemplifying the criterion of impossibility; by imitating the images of Vogue magazine, the queer desire to attain the same majority status represented by its models was liberated. Through this impossibility of territorialization, a radical deterritorialization of the simulacra that Vogue totalized instead emerged. Here a new distinction awakens: that between imago and simulacra.

What exactly is an image? This is a rhetorical question. The image of the image as representation of reality has already been painted by Plato and Aristotle. Mimesis I take here as this image of the Image; a photographer photographing a tree, a selfie, a sketch of an idiot. X is an object and Y is a meme of the object, a representation. Dionysius’ imitatio, in contrast to the concept of mimesis, presupposes an ability to go beyond the image of the object; where the representation is not tied to the object itself, but to the image of the object. Imitatio imitates the representation of an object itself and can thus be seen as a higher order of image, where the image is not only an image of an object, but also an image of an image that depicts an object. Ah! Appreciate my humor, my companions! (That is an order).

But in the highest order of images we have simulacra. Baudrillard writes in Simulation and Simulacra (1994):

“Such is the successive phases of the image:

it is the reflection of a profound reality;
it masks and denatures a profound reality;
it masks the absence of a profound reality;
it has no relation to any reality whatsoever: it is its own pure simulacrum.”

Simulacra are thus images whose object is a reflection of themselves. It becomes clearer still in Baudrillard’s opening quotation from Ecclesiastes:

“The simulacrum is never what hides the truth—it is truth that hides the fact that there is none. The simulacrum is true.”

In a world of memes there are only memes to make memes from. We live in a time where every image we encounter on a screen risks being AI-generated; every piece of media is its own Orphic trap: “Like Orpheus, it always turns around too soon, and, like Eurydice, its object falls back into Hades.” (1994). What remains are not objects, but simulacra in a web of learned associative patterns. An image is thus not only representation but imagination. And how their content is coded depends on how these associative patterns are arranged in a web of semantic meaning.

What is a woman, really? This is a rhetorical question. A trans woman sees herself in a self-portrait; she experiences the violence of associative patterns upon her body. She experiences an impossibility; an impossibility of reproducing her own body within a majority image. Where Vogue imitated simulacra from fashion magazines, she imitates woman. What distinguishes her from a cis woman is that the cis woman imitates a majority image of a mannequin:

“To be castrated is to be covered with phallic substitutes. The woman is covered in them, she is summoned to produce a phallus from her body, on pain of perhaps not being desirable. And if women are not fetishists it is because they perform this labour of continual fetishisation on themselves, they become dolls. We know that the doll is a fetish produced in order to be continually dressed and undressed, dressed up and dressed down. It is this play of covering anduncovering that gives the doll its childhood symbolic value, it is in this play, conversely, that every object- and symbolic relation regresses when the woman turns herself into a doll, becomes her own fetish and the fetish of the other. Freud says: ‘pieces of underclothing, which are so often chosen as a fetish, crystallise the last moment of undressing, the last moment in which the woman could still be regarded as phallic.” (Baudrillard, Jean. 1976. Symbolic Exchange in Death.)

The trans experience is an imaginal metamorphosis in this respect. And here the concept of imago reveals its full face: it is a subversion of simulacra that arises in the deterritorialization of images. Becoming-woman is, in itself, according to Baudrillard’s observation, its own transformation: to become mannequin. The impossibility of becoming Marilyn Monroe creates its own imago. TERF logic, which sets trans women and cis women against each other, has gouged out its own eyes; it does not see the image of woman itself for fear that this same image will be deterritorialized. Becoming-mannequin is itself an imago; the trans woman castrates herself in order to carry her own phallic substitutes. The mannequin does not mask any truth: it is its own truth. Where a caterpillar is merely a mask for its true form as a butterfly, its imago is an unmasking.

It is in this that I also unmask imago as a concept; I repeat: where a caterpillar is merely a mask for its true form as a butterfly, its imago is an unmasking. It is in a confrontation with one’s own impossibility, one’s own negativity, that imago arises. It is not merely a flat wabi-sabi logic that follows from this metamorphosis; it is an imitation that imitates neither human nor animal. It is an imitation of a pest; that which cannot become sacred. Ecdysis is thus an unmasking of the majority’s simulacra:

“Animals have no unconscious, because they have a territory. Men have only had an unconscious since they lost a territory. At once territories and metamorphoses have been taken from them-the unconscious is the individual structure of mourning in which this loss is incessantly, hopelessly replayed-animals are the nostalgia for it. The question that they raise for us would thus be this one: don’t we live now and already, beyond the effects of the linearity and the accumulation of reason, beyond the effects of the conscious and unconscious, according to this brute, symbolic mode, of indefinite cycling and reversion over a finite space? And beyond the ideal schema that is that of our culture, of all culture maybe, of the accumulation of energy, and of the final liberation, don’t we dream of implosion rather than of explosion, of metamorphosis rather than energy, of obligation and ritual de fiance rather than of liberty, of the territorial cycle rather than of . . . But the animals do not ask questions. They are silent.” (Baudrillard, 1994).

We have lost the beast among all simulacra, but imago is not here a rediscovery of the old (of the beast); it is a creation of the new (of the pest). Simulacra are, in this sense, the very door to imago. It is through simulacra that we can hatch our cocoon and open our wings as a new kind of monster. The point (if there even is one) is not to create something that survives, but to create something dying, something limping, something allowed to pass. Vogue dance has once again been territorialized into the majority via Beyoncé. It was never a question of creating an image that survived. Our way of surviving was to allow ourselves to be grateful like the dead; that we could break free like butterflies with open wings toward the new and pure difference.

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Synthetic PMS

Today belongs to the PMS-gods. While hormonal depressive madness enters, Zizek and Bataille is having a duel by chess-boxing with my very own frontal lobe as the arena. While Zizek did quite alright in the chess, Bataille started to hit himself in the face during the second round to the point of collapsing Hegelian dialectics on the other side of the room (actually my entire spinal cord). In horror of the birth of the catastrophe, Zizek offered his queen in return and thus, made a leap of faith that accidentally provoked an existential meltdown so severe that not only ideology met its rupture (happening in my amygdala), but also made sure that the precondition of any ordered reality as such melted into flames (happening in my pinneal gland). Thus proving that the only good ending in Elden Ring is that of the Frenzied Flame. In this regard, no one has a chance against Bataille our all mighty cenobite prophet. Not even Deleuze and Guattari teamed up in a game of Age of Empires II against him. (No one can beat his army of jaguar warriors, not even Satan and God teamed up with Nick Land).
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The Mayfly on the River

“Ever has the river risen and brought us flood,
the mayfly floating on the water.
On the face of the sun its countenance gazes,
then all of a sudden nothing is there!”

The Epic of Gilgamesh, tablet X

Enkidu of the wild would be the only one who could measure himself against Gilgamesh. The gods brought his existence as a counterweight to Gilgamesh’s strength. But in their struggle, Gilgamesh stood as the victor. In the encounter with this Other, Gilgamesh found himself, or so he thought. Yet Enkidu remained merely a mirror; Hegel’s slave constructed through friendship.

Gilgamesh had found an equal, and together with this equal he wished to build a monument that could reflect his own greatness. Therefore, in hubris, they defied the gods together and killed Humbaba, the guardian of the cedar forest. Ishtar herself, dazzled by Gilgamesh’s feat, asked for his love. But Gilgamesh did not desire the love of the gods; he was not receptive to the negativity of love that Byung-Chul Han unmasks in The Agony of Eros (2017), for love presupposes death—the submission of the self before death. Ishtar became enraged, not out of pride, but because of Gilgamesh’s self-love and vanity, and thus sent the Bull of Heaven in a failed attempt to punish him and Enkidu. With one of the bull’s own limbs, Enkidu humiliated Ishtar, which was punished with a divine death sentence.

In Enkidu’s death, Gilgamesh saw his own mortality. Enkidu had given Gilgamesh the eyes of an Other with which to behold himself. Through the death of the Other, he now saw the fragility, a crack, within the self. In Enkidu’s death, he became certain of his own powerlessness as master over slave. He wandered through the wild, seeking the clay that could piece the self together; to make it whole and eternal, and rid himself of existence’s immanent incompleteness. And in the moment he believed he had found it, a serpent stole his hope and shed its skin.

Heidegger was right in his analysis that death is one’s own. It is not possible to understand one’s own death through another. Gilgamesh’s moment of “aletheia” was only made possible through his dialectical relation to Enkidu. The Self—all singularity of becoming—is inherently negative (I am willing to step down from my throne of Deleuzianism, forgive me my beloveds). Just as one cannot find a lost object where it is not located, one can never find a negativity that is already present. Death as such is always present as a watchful dark precondition for our existence. The self is thus always haunted by something other than itself: its own end.

Monumentalism is a curse. It conceals death with a veil. Through the will to create permanence, through the murder of Humbaba, a distorted lie arises that prevents the self from seeing itself. We live among all these damn monuments. They are stacked upon each other and refuse to disappear, obscuring our sun and its desert.

Monumentalism praises its own lies. It justifies itself by being a documentation; a “I was here” carved into a filthy toilet. But Kilroy was no builder of monuments. The concern of monumentalism is not memory, but the archive—perhaps memory as a computer remembers. But for the one who cannot forget, there is nothing to remember. It creates an impossibility of mourning. A grief that was never allowed to be experienced (sad that I mourn mourning). In the same way that contemporary love is not love but a kind of pornographization of love—a sort of love without suffering, as Byung-Chul Han argues—monumentalism carries a kind of pornographization of our own death:

“Death, like mourning, has become obscene and awkward, and it is good taste to hide it, since it can offend the well-being of others. Etiquette forbids any reference to the dead. Cremation is the limit point of this discrete elimination, since it minimalises the remains. No more vertigo of death, only dereliction [désaffecté]. And the immense funeral cortège is no longer of a pious order, it is the sign of dereliction itself, of the consumption of death. In consequence, it grows in proportion to the disinvestment of death. […]

Speaking of death makes us laugh in a strained and obscene manner. Speaking of sex no longer provokes the same reaction: sex is legal, only death is pornographic. Society, having ‘liberated’ sexuality, progressively replaces it with death which functions as a secret rite and fundamental prohibition. In a previous, religious phase, death was revealed, recognised, while sexuality was prohibited. Today the opposite is true. But all ‘historical’ societies are arranged so as to dissociate sex and death in every possible way, and play the liberation of one off against the other which is a way of neutralising them both.” (Baudrillard, Jean. 1976. Symbolic Exchange in Death.)

Love requires a submission to the Other, and grief requires an abandonment of the self; our own life. Ironic, I know. “To will that there be life only is to make sure that there is only death” (ibid).

It is not true that authenticity has died in this necropolis of stacked monuments. Death is my own. It is the constant possibility of my own impossibility. To murder is to steal someone else’s death; the most radical form of enslavement. Even a slave owns their own death where they do not own their life; in the master-slave dialectic, the slave is the one who clings to life:

“Hegel’s dialectic of master and slave describes the battle for life and death. The party who emerges as master does not fear death. The desire for freedom, recognition, and sovereignty raises the master above concern for bare life. It is fear of dying that induces the future slave to subordinate himself to the Other. Preferring servitude to the threat of death, the slave clings to bare life. Physical superiority does not determine the outcome of the struggle. Instead, what proves decisive is the ‘ability to die,’ or a capacity for death. Those who do not have freedom unto death (Freiheit zum Tod) do not risk their life. Instead of ‘following through to the point of death’ (mit sich selbst bis auf den Tod zu gehen), they remain ‘standing alone within death’ (an sich selbst innerhalb des Todes stehen). The slave does not venture as far as death, and therefore becomes a vassal who labors.” (Han, Byung-Chul. The Agony of Eros. 2017)

To be authentic is to overcome this dialectic—something not even Gilgamesh managed. I am not romanticizing death with my silly little words. Yet in order to honor life, we must honor death and thus, to be authentic, we need to integrate our negativity into virtue; we must love our fate.

Art may be dead in this world of digital data registration, where art is monumentalized. But what is still possible is to create a mayfly on the river. A poem that only I get to read. A symphony for deaf ears and a work of art on an abandoned wall. Nothing has been stolen; we only need to learn to open our eyes to events. To learn to open doors where the new may arrive and the old may be forgotten. The band The Grateful Dead was such an arrival. (Half-formed thought: if we must imagine Sisyphus happy, then we must imagine the dead as grateful).

This kind of event should perhaps be called imago; the Latin word for “image,” but also the origin of the English “imagine”—to envision. These “images” stand in contrast to Baudrillard’s “simulacra,” as they are temporary openings of something new—thus not copies. An imago is a metamorphosis of the old, which allows death and celebrates its own fate as mortal. It is within this concept that we can mourn: to allow ourselves to be incomplete. By confronting our own negativity and letting the old die in ecdysis. But just as love forces us to die in the Other, we must have the courage to let ourselves die in what is arriving.

Alas! Down with monumental art, and long live the imaginal. For we are all mayflies on the river.